Against the Odds

I REMEMBER ONE INSTANCE AS CLEAR AS IT HAPPEN YESTERDAY......I HAD COME HOME AND HE HAD THE IDEA TO TAKE ALL THE LIGHT BULBS OUT OF THE LIGHT SOCKETS SO I COULD SEE NOTHING BUT TOTAL DARKNESS AS I FUMBLED THROUGH OUR HOUSE......I HAD NO IDEA WHERE HE WAS I THOUGHT THE POWER WAS JUST OUT SINCE IT HAD BEEN RAINING PRETTY BAD......LITTLE DID I KNOW THIS WAS ALL JUST A PART OF HIS PLAN.......OUT OF THE DARKNESS I RECEIVED A BLOW TO MY HEAD.....IT KNOCKED ME TO MY KNEES.......I COULD HEAR HIM LAUGHING AND HE WAS SAYING I TOLD YOU NOT TO TELL....OR YOU WOULD PAY.....SO I WAS THINKING TO MYSELF I DIDNT TELL ANYONE HE WAS BEATING ME..... WHAT IS HE TALKING ABOUT....BUT I DIDNT SAY A WORD..I JUST STARTED TO PRAY OUT LOUD.....THIS REALLY MADE HIM MAD AS HE WAS AN UNBELIEVER TO OUR PRECIOUS LORD ....EVERYTIME I WOULD START PRAYING HE WOULD HIT ME IN THE HEAD AGAIN AND AGAIN.......EVERYTIME HE WOULD STRIKE MY HEAD I WOULD PRAY EVEN LOUDER......I WOULD REBUKE SATAN AND I BEGGED THY LORD TO TAKE ME HOME......ON THIS NIGHT I REMEMBER STARTING TO SAY THY LORDS PRAYER AND NEXT THING I KNEW I WAS SEEING WHITE LIGHTS........I WAS BEING EXAMINED IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM AND OH THE LIGHT WAS SO BRIGHT......THROUGH THE LIGHT I SAW A RADIANT ANGEL SHE HAD SUCH A GLOW.......I THOUGHT SHE HAD COME TO TAKE ME HOME.......I DRIFTED TO SLEEP TO THE SINGING OF THAT ANGELIC VOICE OF MY GUARDIAN ANGEL......WHEN I AWOKE THE NEXT MORNING I FELT A PEACE LIKE I HAVE NEVER FELT BEFORE........TO ME THIS WAS THY LORDS WAY OF REMINDING ME THAT THY ANGELS AND THY LORD OR WITH ME THROUGH IT ALL...........THE VERY NEXT NIGHT I WAS BEATEN WITH A STOP SIGN.......BUT I DIDNT FIGHT THIS TIME......I DIDNT PRAY ALOUD.......RATHER I TOLD MY ABUSIVE HUSBAND GO AHEAD HIT ME AGAIN I WILL FEAR NOT FOR MY LORD AND MY GUARDIAN ANGEL ARE NEAR.... SO BEAT ME IF YOU MUST, IF THIS GIVES YOU PLEASURE. I WILL TAKE THE BEATINGS AS A FAITHFUL SERVANT TO MY LORD.....I LOVE THE LORD AND HE WILL TEND TO MY EVERY NEED...... FOR I KNOW ONE DAY YOU THE ONE I CALL MY HUSBAND WILL HAVE TO FACE JUDGEMENT FOR THE BEATINGS YOU PLACE ON ME TODAY........TO MY SURPRISE HE LISTENED THIS TIME.....HE THREW THE STOP SIGN DOWN THAT HE WAS BEATING ME WITH.......HE SAID I HAVE MADE YOU HURT BUT THIS IS ALL I KNOW.....FOR I WAS ALWAYS HURT AND SO I ONLY KNOW HOW TO HURT......AND HE WALKED OUT OF THE ROOM...HE LEFT THAT NIGHT.......NOT TO RETURN FOR A WEEK.........I WAS TO SCARED TO PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL THE POLICE, I WAS TO SCARED TO TRY AND LEAVE, I JUST CRAWLED IN BED TO FIND SOME SLEEP............SEE, I HAD A CHANCE TO LEAVE BUT I DIDNT KNOW HOW.............THERE WERE MANY MORE BEATINGS, BEING TOSSED OUT OF A MOVING CAR, CUT WITH SHARP OBJECTS.....AND MY LIST COULD GO ON AND ON............I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW IF YOU ARE READING THIS RIGHT NOW...AND YOU DONT KNOW HOW TO GET OUT..............JUST TRUST IN THY LORD AND LET HIM GUIDE YOU OUT OF THE ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP AS HE DID ME..............I REACHED A POINT THAT I WAS TIRED OF IT ALL........AND I SAID AGAINST ALL THE ODDS OF ALL HIS BEATINGS I AM STILL ALIVE..........SO I AM AM A SURVIVOR...........I REALIZED THAT IF HE WAS GOING TO KILL ME, I WAS GOING TO LET IT HAPPEN.... BUT, IF IT DID IT WOULD HAPPEN WHILE I SET MYSELF FREE FROM HIM FOREVER.............ALL PRAISE TO THY LORD TODAY I AM FREE FROM MY ABUSIVE MARRIAGE................I DO STILL LIVE IN FEAR......THAT HE WILL TRACK ME DOWN BUT HE CAN LOOK, HE CAN FIND ME, HE CAN DO WHATEVER HE PLANS TO DO......FOR ME, I WILL LIVE FOR THE LORD AND HE WILL PROTECT ME.......AND ONLY THY LORD KNOWS WHAT TOMORROW WILL BE .......SO NOW I SAY I AM FREE.... I DO HAVE FEAR BUT I HAVE A PEACE IN KNOWING NO MATTER WHAT BECOMES OF ME....I WILL REIGN IN THE HEAVENS ONE DAY FOR MY ETERNITY.............